Best. Day. Ever

Yesterday we received the greatest news in all the land. My guy will be back here for his Follow-On. So excited. I wish I could properly convey exactly how excited I am but this excitement in Homers face is about as good as it gets!!!

 

Love my guy and I am so so so happy we have one less obstacle to overcome!

What if...

Okay so this one is going to be short and sweet. On the 21st the guy applied for his follow-on to be here. That was nearly a month ago. This next week he is going to work day shift so he can get things going and hopefully he will hear back on all of that. It all hit me this morning as I was driving into work.

What if.

- What if he doesn't get to come back here after already being gone in Turkey for 15 months.
- What if I have to go the remainder of his time in the Air Force with him somewhere else and not with me and the littles.
- What if this is an even bigger test to what we mean to each other.
- What if we fall apart. Not likely but still it plagues my mind and heart.

What if...what if...what if...

I know that's all we have right now, a bunch of little what if's but I guess that's what's so scary. You just never know and maybe this is why I have always feared the unknown of military life.

I hope we get good news.

I hope it all works out.

Little Things...

 

 

This quote could not be any more true than in my current situation. Its no secret that we walked into this with not only our own 3 kids each but also 3 of each others kids as well. We walked in with full lives and even our fair share of baggage and such. The chance to get downtime together without kids, or even as a small family of 5 is no less than a small miracle. So far we have had one good weekend with just his kids and every Thursday so far we get time with my kids when he can make it down. We do our typical Chinese Thursday (we grub down on Chinese food EVERY Thursday...don't judge) and then we follow it up with homework and well, typical family type stuff, showers, complaining and bed time :)

 

Now last night, we were able to have something we don't get too often and that was our very first REAL date. It was so fun! Just to be around each other, no kids, to chill and talk and BS and act like we had not a care in the world. It's in these moments I have to remember to enjoy them, that even though they may seem small, they are actually huge. They are the moments that will be most missed. Sitting in a restaurant as the guy looks around for a place to put his gum (uhm at 31 who honestly still puts it under the table...him) and me waiting less than patiently for my girly grown up drink to show up. Man a lemon drop martini could not have tasted any better than it did last night!

 

We went to a movie, we ate ice cream during, we snuggled in the seats and we came home and well...hey...not EVERYTHING needs to get put into the blogosphere. As we laid on the bed though, facing each other, chatting about things it hit me that I'm going to miss those moments. The ones that I get to look at him and just see him looking back, the moments that I can reach over and hold his hand, or cuddle up so close its almost like we are one person. I am seriously going to have a rough time and I think to cure this at least the cuddling part, this lady is going to have to buy herself a body pillow. Haha. Funny right? But not really, cause I love my nights where I have him there, I also decided that some Skype convos will just have to be at my night time and I will just have to set the laptop on his pillow. Just like 'we used to' is what we will say and for that brief moment it will almost be as though he is right there.

 

I have yet to share this blog with anyone because so far I have come to the realization that I am going to have a rough time of this, that still some people will judge me even committing to stay with him during his deployment, but mostly because I want to be able to say whatever I want and right now...just like a pouty little 2 year old I want to scream and shout...

 

"I don't want you to go, I want you to stay right here, I need you, boo hoo hoo"

 

Now that that is all out there this is me saying...remember the small things Andrea. Remember that you had all these moments and remember to make the most of them. Get out of your head and start being in the moment or else those moments are going to be ruined and you will have nothing good to hold onto.

 

I love this man with every fiber in my body and maybe that's why this is so scary. Time apart isn't so hard when you aren't fully devoted to the person leaving...but when you are...it seems to be the most impossible adventure you will ever go on.

 

 

XOXO,

G33KY Penguin

Remember...

Every day I am reminded that I am the girl of a US Air Force TechSGT. Every day I am humbled because it is without question that he has an extremely important job.

Yesterday on Veterans Day 2013 it was no different. Only it had me thinking...all weekend about that day, what it meant, who I knew that had given their lives, their family members lives, their time, hearts and souls for our freedom, our ability to live the lives we live in an amazing country, albeit not perfect.

I am proud to be a part of this mans life but I want to take a minute to say thank you. The lives we lead, have lead, the lives we are about to lead together won't be easy but they are worth it. I am proud of the man I have met, the man  he is, the job he does and the sacrifices that have been and will be given.

With that being said...

I am also thankful for my step dad, my grandfather, my uncles,  my cousins and my multiple friends who have also served their time in many different branches of the military. My sisters are military brats, they have lived on many bases and my brother has dual citizenship in Japan and the US. For all the time given I am reminded that not only is our freedom what they continue to fight for but it is what we need to learn to appreciate every day.

As we get closer...

My time to have to deal with being apart from the person who has become my heart and soul is coming quicker and quicker and I will have to remind myself that it is for a greater purpose, it isn't meant to tear us apart or cause us grief. I will remember to see the bigger picture and to cherish the time we get to speak, Skype and have a few moments to us. Our time difference will be huge, our lives won't just halt because he left, they will keep on moving and even with miles and miles and MILES of distance between us we have to remain close. In love.

Thank goodness I am certain for the first time in forever this won't be a problem.

I hope the world is ready for us to overcome this because when we come back together we are going to be even more unstoppable.

Happy (day after) Veterans Day. Thank you. For everything.

2 months

Yesterday was the day we hit the official 2 months of talking. We met on September 5, 2013 and it seems almost like it was FOREVER AGO. Doesn't feel like this person wasn't always in my life, in my thoughts and oddly...in my dreams. Who knew that with just one message (or three) that someone could win over my heart so completely.

Okay. Well. Enough mushy BS.

Lets get down to the nitty gritty. We had our first Halloween together. We had our FIRST HOLIDAY. To some that might seem silly, but lets be honest here. We will miss next years set of holidays so I am taking advantage of every holiday we have. Literally. Pictures will be taken, smiles will be on our faces and we will enjoy every minute if I have to fake my way through it. Cause the other reality is that with 6 kids...it gets a little hectic!

We had a blast. Hung out with friends, hung out with the kids and had a good time. I still think its funny how after only this long my guy calm my nerves so quickly in an otherwise chaotic situation. I mean we had 6 kids running around like crazy people and besides at the beginning and the end of trick or treating I am certain we only had our eyes on the two littlest at any given time. Good news. They were all returned in one piece and all with full bags of candy. Yay!

In only 2 months we have hit some serious milestones and maybe we are fast forwarding because we know we have soo much we will miss but really I think we are just enjoying each other to the fullest.

Things I don't want to forget....

- The first movie I took his littles to (Cloudy with a chance of meatballs)
- The first day he came to cuddle when I was getting over being sick (11/5/13)
- The first time we all hung out as a family (10/6/13)
- Our first I love You (9/11/13)
- The day I knew he was my forever (9/9/11)
- Our first kiss (9/9/11)
- The first weekend we had a sleepover with all the kids (10/11/13)

These are just a few of the sweet memories I never want to forget. Of course we had our first holidays, and pumpkin patch visits and such but its the sweet tiny things that mean oh so much to me. The details that you forget 20 years down the road.

2 months may seem like no time all to the very regular person who is just starting to date again. But I don't go in with doubt, I go in with the sureness that it will all work out and despite some of the little speed bumps that have already been handed to us, I still have 100% sureness that this is where we are supposed to be.

2 months. Wait till we hit 2 years and we realize we have only seen each other 8 months during that time! We got this...right?!?!

XOXO
G33KY Penguin